Kismet

©10102009

That kiss, those hugs and everything else in between. No matter how hard I try, I can never forget it. It's like they are forever etched in my brain. When I'm with you, I'm a totally different person and slowly I'm getting used to that side of me. Right there, I've became my own worst nightmare. I never thought I can feel this towards a person, that I can do the things that I've done when I'm with you.



Those stolen moments, our little rendezvous where we have to escape from the crowd just to be together.Those moments were wonderful but they were reckless and irresponsible. But no matter how hard i try, I can't stop myself from not seeing you because I long to be with you.When we're together, alone under the stars, away from the judging eyes of the people around us, everything just falls into place, everything can be summed up in one word-PERFECT. Except for one thing, I'm not yours and you're not mine. It was perfect, like I'm dreaming the best possible nightmare I'll ever have and i don't ever want to wake up and snap back to reality because i know i can never be with you, maybe i ALMOST did but that's just it, it's too little too late-I can never have you, not in this lifetime.


It was fate who played with my feelings not you, i realized that i like you and i mean i really,really like you after that fleeting kiss we shared under the rain. I miss that moment when your lips touched mine while feeling the tiny droplets of rain pouring in my face, your hands around my neck and that giddy feeling inside me. But no matter what i do I just can't be with or even without you. If only you can stay with me, just be with me for one last moment then i'll pray that moment will last forever.


I know we are better off apart, it may be painful but it is the right thing to do. Maybe I'm the only one who's feeling these mixed up emotions, so please just let me get lost in my own world and reminisce those moments. I know it'll never happen again but i can still smile and say I'm glad it did. Now i know some things are really not meant to be. Maybe it's not in the cards for us, it was never written in the stars. If only I can write my own fate but i can't, I'm in this situation wherein I'm trapped in my own pretend world that you were once mine and that i was once yours. You were everything that i ever wanted you to be but it's just too late.