It will pass

My week's been hell, heck! its been hell for quite a while, a lot longer than just a week. Work's been hard and I feel like I'm all over the place. My head's been crazy telling me stuff I don't need at the moment which makes everything more chaotic than it already is.

I pray so hard so I can get it together. I'm such a mess lately I don't even know how to start my day well. Sometime I want a day, a chance to start over but it just would not come. 

Everyone has their own monsters inside their head that keeps them up all night, well... mine is my work. Don't get me wrong I love my job, it has been my dream job since high school. But I did not realize it entails a lot of hard work and responsibility. Its hard to keep up sometimes. I guess I really lack proper time management skills (and something I should learn STAT!). I just don't know if I can handle any more of my clients. Well, I know that I can, but I felt like my mind is telling me otherwise. 

I know every job has their own stressors, and I'm not in a position to rant because I know for a fact that I have a good and stable job that I should be thankful for. Well, I am thankful and I feel really blessed that I have what I have right now. I learned a lot of things, opened me up to a different world.

I guess I'm just in a phase where everything is just driving me nuts. I want to do well in this job that I cannot let go of what I know I cannot change. I guess I need a fresh start, a clean slate where I can start anew, but I cant. A project comes one after the other.Believe me I love it but the process is not easy. What I'm trying to think about now is how happy the clients will be with the outcome, how the project culminates to an end a few bumps here and there but I survived we all survives. 

I guess at the end of the day all I can do is pray and tell myself, IT WILL PASS.