Imaginary Lovestory

It's been a long time since I've written something like this. (c)01152010

I still don’t know if what we had was real or just a game that I keep on losing or a test that I keep on failing. It’s like what you’re telling me about what you feel for me and what your actions say are two different things. The time that you told me that you did have feelings for me but it just wasn’t enough to compete with what you feel for her, was like I was in heaven but part of me was burning in hell. I don’t know if I should be happy knowing that you did have feeling for me or bang my head on the wall for knowing that I was never enough for you.

All this time I keep on thinking of what could have been if she wasn’t in the picture, will there ever be the “US” that I’ve been dreaming of or will I be stuck here in the same place where I am now? A make-believe world where there was once a “me and you”

I feel so stupid for thinking or even trying to replace an almost perfect guy that I had for someone like you who just used me in ways I never imagined a “friend” would do. You did just use me and maybe I just used you too. But between those moments of just using each other for our own pleasure, I fell in love with you and ever since then I keep on falling till I hit the floor and got my heart badly broken.